there will be no tomorrows
cold, distant, impersonal - that's basically me.

i wish i were more talented and i’m never good enough for anyone, especially not for myself. i’m 21 in december, too old to be fat but i am.

Height: 163cm (5'4)
HW: 55kg (121Ibs)
CW: 47.6kg (104.9Ibs)
GW1: 44kg (97Ibs)
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Why is it that when I’m angry, all I want to do is hurt myself?

I’m going to convince myself that I can’t digest solid foods and never touch them ever again.

32610) Why do I keep eating?
34086) Every time my thighs rub together when I walk, I just want to take a knife and cut off all the fat

It used to be that I’d be happy if I were thin. 

But now I feel like it’s a choice between being thin and being happy.

Yet I still can’t let go of this. Even though I know it’s bringing me misery.

What is wrong with me?